Tick-Tock , Tick-Tock , Tick-Tock. The clock strikes from second to second. Without noticing, I have already walked on this earth for 17 years.

What have I been doing in the past? Looking back I realize I was only wasting my life doing silly stuff . Today, Isn't a very good day. Lots of things happened.I quarreled with my her, I got screwed by someone , I broke my thumb's bone. Therefore, I was sitting at the balcony looking up to the sky like what I used to do in the past whenever I am having problems. Enjoying this peaceful moment, thinking.

Suddenly, a lot of things just popped up in my mind. And the first thing is , her. We've been quarreling over a small matter. Well simply its because me being too sensitive? Yeah. After meeting her, she gave a huge impact in my life. She changed me. My attitude, my thinking and so on. I am really grateful that she appears in my life. Once again I would like to thank God for letting me to be with her. I made a lots of mistakes which will leads us to an argument. I would like to apologize for that. I have made clear of my mind. Today, I've totally understand how am I suppose to become. What is being mature? Its simple actually. She let me know that, I should be understanding not only in relationship, but all situations. Yeah. I realize that I had totally awaken from the past.

She meant more than my life to me. When I saw her saying that I won't give up my life on her, my heart sank. I used to say that a lot of times to her. Does this shows that she doesn't really believes in me? She does believes me but not that much I guess. Can't blame her for that. Speaking of trust. We'd just started off not long ago. Of course she can't trust me that much. What she said is just right. Just take your time to observe whether if I'm a guy who you can put your trust on. By telling how faithful, how loving, how genuine am I to her does not proves anything. These are only words. Feel it with yourself and I'm sure you wont regret. Next summer I'll be leaving to the states already. This is one of the things that I am worrying about. I am not staying there permanently . I am going there for college and university only. 3 years , I said. 3 years and I'll be back for you. You're really a girl whom I don't want to miss out in my life. Hopefully you'll mark my words and crave it in your heart. I'll show you I'm worthy for you to wait.

Okay, That's the first and what's next?

My dream. I am a guy who have great dreams. I want to become a successful person in the future. Lawyer? No. Engineer? Nah uh. Accountant? course not. I am going for Psychology. Psychology is a wide field. If you are asking me what am I going to become , I'm sorry I can't tell you yet. Well er, I don't know what more to tell about this. What's on my mind now is to study well, do well for my coming SPM( A test before we graduate from High School in Malaysia) and be a good boyfriend who can really take good care of his girlfriend instead of making her unhappy.


As I look upon the sky, my mood goes into a stable status. Peace is the only thing I can sense.