Last night , I promised her that I will wake her up at 4 in the morning. Because she wants to do some revision for her Malay paper today. This time, I even borrowed my brother's handphone to use as an alarm to wake me up! I did woke up at 3.45am. I feel like calling her, and that time I was still not in a clear state of mind! There are still 15 minutes more, hmm... I'll lay down and wait. I fell asleep again in not even a minute!

This morning, she called me. She was really really panic and she was frustrated! AGAIN! I DISAPPOINTED HER! AHHH!!!!! I AM SUCH A USELESS GUY! I'M NOTHING MORE BUT A PIECE OF SH*T!

She asked me why didn't I wake her up! Then I explained! She said she hates me ! she hates me a lot! And she switched off her phone! I tried to call her house phone ! But no one answered! I was panic from that moment until now!

I'm really really scared! I AM WORRIED! WORRIED that she can't do well ! And I failed to wake her up again! This is not the first time ! I am seriously living in fear now!

I've lost my appetite , I've lost my mood in doing everything ! Now everything in my mind is just her!

I just hope that I can speak to her asap! I am feeling really really guilty here!!


PLEASE HONEY!

I REALLY REALLY WISH U DID WELL FOR YOUR MALAY PAPER!